It wasn’t there when I went back to look. I had borrowed the SD card from my camera to scan an important document to my desk top. When I went to retrieve the card the next day, it wasn’t there. I was disturbed by this. I needed that SD card, as it contained hundreds of family photos. Four the next 4 days I wondered where it could be, but hadn’t actively searched for it. Finally, a week later, as my concern grew deeper, I stood in the hallway of my house and prayed.
Lord, you know where the SD card is. Please show me.
Within 10 seconds I heard in my spirit to check my pants pocket. I immediately went to my closet.
Hum…what did I wear last week?
I slid my hand into my hanging jean’s pocket and the SD card just popped out. There in was. In my hand. Less than 1 minute from the time I prayed.
Oh thank you God! You heard my prayer and answered me so fast! Oh thank you, thank you, thank you!
But then my joy turned to questioning.
God…you answered this simple prayer so quickly. I could have survived without this SD card. And yet I have prayed for six weeks that you heal me of the reoccurring pain within my hip and leg that has stopped me from all activity. Everyone that loves me is praying too. You could have answered THAT ONE quickly, but you chose not to. Why Lord?
There in the quiet of my walk-in-closet, I got real with God. In my frustration, I asked the hard questions.
Why? Haven’t You heard? Don’t You want to help me?
I heard His reply in my heart.
I don’t need the SD card. It’s of no use to me. I have heard your prayer and I know all about your physical pain. But your pain IS FOR MY GLORY.
At that moment I honestly felt joy… not joy for my pain, because the pain didn’t feel good! But I felt a joy deep within when I knew that my pain was not being wasted. There was a reason that God had allowed it. It was for my benefit, or another person’s benefit, and the work God was doing would point others to HIM.
Maybe you have prayed for a long time about something so important. You might feel God isn’t listening…or worse, that He answers the prayers of others but seems to have ignored yours.
Oh my sweet friend! God hears every word that His children utter to Him. I would only urge you to not lose faith or give up. Continue to pour out your heart to God as He works behind the scenes. He won’t waste your pain or circumstances. He is using it for His glory.
God, teach me while I wait. Show me what to do and which direction to take. Reveal Yourself to me in a fresh and mighty way. In Your name we ask, Amen.
But He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold. Job 23:10